As it was lived...

Its just the beginning.

2011-04-28T10:27:00.003+08:00

Life's been happier since......

The guys came to my life

And since Khim is around :) <2

Obviously, that aint Isa :)
But i know he's definately happier now.
Goodbye past, its just the beginning.

The End.

2010-04-13T01:56:00.002+08:00

i guess the blogging life ain't for me:)

even so, life is neutral i guess, good and bad from time to time, that's life right?

i guess this should be my last post.

cherish your life:)

"do what thou wilt"

26th January 2010

2010-01-26T21:42:00.001+08:00

i need my life back.

and you lied

but then again, when have you ever told the truth?

1st January 2010

2010-01-01T05:46:00.005+08:00

"fun we have will never end"

HAPPY NEW YEAR FAGS:D!!!

it's been awhile since i last udpated, currently i'm working, so i'm quite busy, i'm attached:D and i got myself an iphone and a macbook, sweet!

so 2009 has been a roller-coaster for me, mostly because of my social life and o's.

if i'm not wrong, o's results coming out on the 15th and i'm sure i'm gonna fail, prepared to retake me o's again, already. i mean if i get 20points, and i don't even get to the course that i want then whats the point right?

well this are a few things i remembered in 2009:)

i remember not studying for my o levels and just messed around in school.

i remember eating waffles with lyana at gelare when it still existed:)

i remember making nana cry because i annoyed her during art class.

i remember all my friends trying to cheer me up when i was down:)

i remember marilynn trying to help me concentrate in class:)

i remember camwhoring with lyana just because we felt like it:)

i remember surprising arvind for his birthday:)

i remember meeting new great people this year, people i may never forget:)

i remember being attached:)

i remember our very 1st date:)

i remember feeling like the cutest couple on earth and ever so happy on our first date:)

to be frank, there's a whole lot of memories that i remember for 2009, even for the past decade, but i gotta make this post short and sweet, gotta get myself some shut eye cause i'll be working in apprx 1hrs time and i'm not yet asleep:D

once again happy new year peeps:) hope you have a swell 2010:)

8th November 2009

2009-11-08T06:45:00.004+08:00

it's 6.48am and i'm still not yet asleep-.-
just watch the movie i am sam again and i swear its such a heartwarming movie.
so basically i am sam is about a mentally retarded man who fights for custody of his 7-year-old daughter, and in the process teaches his cold-hearted lawyer the value of love and family.
guys should watch it, i swear its damn good:D

so everything is alright for now i guess. i should be studying for my malay O's-.- but noooo, i'm busy on the comp and the ps3 all the time-.-
dang, wish me luck lads, science and humanities is already a bust. oh well.

and this is how irresistable i get:D

-and when john lennon wrote the song 'all you need is love', maybe he was right:)

1st November 2009

2009-11-01T22:47:00.008+08:00

i never knew you could actually feel a heartache.
i always tell myself "this is it" while smiling happily when we get "back" together.
my birthday is in 25 more days... i swear i'm not looking forward to it anymore.

you've out done yourself, bravo.
and erm, at least don't embaress me know.
love. ouch.

18th October 2009

2009-10-18T17:54:00.002+08:00

a begger, begs.
a man with no self-esteem breaks at every single word.
a dog, is hated by most.
garbage is useless.
and i am everything stated above.
there's a part of me that wants to savour this relationship, and there's another part that wants me to stand up for my rights.
and you isolating yourself is not helping at all.

17th October 2009

2009-10-17T16:11:00.004+08:00

no, don't tell me to adapt to your ways.
we can come together and solve things but don't tell me to adapt to your ways.
i guess if you think it's always about you then you're wrong, i guess.
or maybe i'm wrong. whatever.

O's in 5more days? or 4? i'm not even bothered to know, sorry mum and dad.
i'm a dog.

8th October 2009

2009-10-08T17:58:00.002+08:00

will i never be good enough?
or do you want me to be exactly like him?

every thursday.

2009-09-14T18:52:00.002+08:00

Giving up doesn't mean you are weak, sometimes it means that your strong enough to let go.

So don't frown, because you never know when someone is falling in love with your smile :)

Cheer up sasa.

14th September 2009

2009-09-14T15:10:00.000+08:00

fuck today.
you wrecked my confidence:D happy?
5/10? people who i torment EVERYDAY give me more!
its a trivial matter to get piss off to but its hard since you talk about 'hot' guys all the times.
have i told you how it wrecks my confidence?
oh and baby, just because i'm chasing you and trying to make you and happy and stuff, don't threaten me okey.
you do have the power to stop everything and make me beg but don't use that to 'slap' my face okey.
i got my 'harga diri' also.
takecare,
piss-off.

1st September 2009

2009-09-01T19:05:00.000+08:00

today, alot of plans failed, heh.
by far, the most fucked up day.
should have anticipated everything sooner.

toodles.

13th August 2009

2009-08-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

<--this here is snoopy, she is cool.
i think we look like hamsters here-.-

oh well, in recent news...
did badly for my prelims which include maths p1, history and english p1.
had a fun (?) but quite exciting national day, haha. whole day with fat ly-.- weee.
we actually thought we could see the fireworks from pasir ris beach, and that idiot actually force me to say the pledge at 8.22pm.
oh and i'm enjoying the study groups with my pals at starbucks:D
oh well thats all, physics paper tmr. woopeedo-.-

p.s i did my lips, truthfully i regret it a wee bit :S oh what the hell.

2nd August 2009

2009-08-01T00:34:00.011+08:00

wednesday 29 july 2009
racial harmony day:D

bubby<3 :D

others in facebook, the pics here are damn blur. night mates!

28th July 2009

2009-07-28T01:19:00.003+08:00

blood could'nt make us any closer.

first and foremost, congratulations to romo for the solemnization ceremony.
i'm sure things will turn out better for everyone, insyallah:)
thanks for being there to hear me out the raden family.
my studies are starting to pick up, i'm actually really happy i did some sums from the ten-year series:)
i'm trying to learn to live in the present moment, to appreciate what little things life has to offer.
well, got to go crash in now, tommorow is a whole new day o' fun:D

spend a moment every day thinking of someone to thank:)
thank you mum and dad, raden family, brothers, nur maisurah, melissa lee:D

2009-07-24T23:23:00.003+08:00

Let it be, let it be, let it be. OMG, Isa, the song is stuck in my head! Haha^^

Imy, I'm bored (:

19th June 2009

2009-06-19T04:03:00.002+08:00

It'll be a miracle i make it through O's this year.
the shit is clouding my mind and senses.
i had enough of this.
i'm a guy, i got my harga diri also.
if you wanna remove me from you life, don't beat around the bush please.
i had enough of this.

it was a lie from the start, and sadly, i believed in it.

2nd June 2009

2009-06-02T17:59:00.002+08:00

Creep by Radiohead.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here.

if you think not talking much to me is the best way to not hurt me, you're wrong.
i'm not sure about you.
i'm not perfect, i'm not him, i know, but i do my best to make you happy.
where are you bub? where are you?

19th May 2009

2009-05-19T20:54:00.001+08:00

what did i do to deserve such punishment?

19th May 2009

2009-05-19T14:25:00.002+08:00

Tommorow we're gonna start on intensive mother tongue drilling:( * says a lil prayer*
pressure is starting to build up mates, O's is a pain i tell you.

Its funny how strangers,become friends,then lovers &then strangers again.
Its funny how feelings during our intimate moments can be easily forgotten.
Its funny how i never really acted like an adult when we were close.
Its funny how we really enjoyed each others company then.
Its funny how you make me feel that i was the bestest thing that happened to your life.
Its funny how i said that falling for you was like an illness.
Its funny how all our promises ended up.
Its funny how i always think of you when songs on my Ipod are played.
Its funny how you make me laugh over your lame jokes.
Its funny how i never really told you how i felt.
Its funny how you moved on so fast.

Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
-Ida Scott Taylor

maybe, something is wrong with me, but momma said to me 'son, you're great enough already'
i realise, times have change.

21st April 2009

2009-04-21T21:54:00.002+08:00

lies. lies. lies-.-

seriously stop lying already.
the difference is vast.
and its not because of the O's.
pfft.
well whatever makes you happy, whatever you want aight.
all i know is, i'm great enough already:D

2009-04-19T04:02:00.004+08:00

PEOPLE ARE NOT PERFECT
(Except when they smile)

Cheer up sasa (:

19th April 2009

2009-04-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

they say life is like a roller-coaster ride, there's up and downs.

times have changed.
you claim we're this but we're actually that.
you say we're hand in hand but we're light years apart.
i don't get this game you're playing.
cause i believe you were ever felt how its like in my shoes.
we're like strangers.

and the lovefool melodiously sings the song 'come what may'.

28th March 2009

2009-03-28T11:49:00.002+08:00

mengapa kau menjauhkan dirimu kasih
ternyata aku masih tak tau
jangan la kau terus menyiksai hati ku
jangan biarkan aku menunggu

tak pernah aku mencurangi cinta kita
yg kita bina bersama
sesungguhnya aku melukai hatimu
ohh mohon maafkan la diriku

adakah insan lain dihatimu
hingga aku disingkirkan
lupakah kau pada janji manismu
yang kau ucapkan di ketika itu

sungguh tidak ku duga akhirnya kita terpisah jua
istana yang dibina, kau robohkan begitu saja
segala yang aku pertahankan, sikit pun tak pernah
kau hiraukan sayang...

its sort a malay emo song-.- but wth it is meaningful k.

25th March 2009

2009-03-25T21:15:00.002+08:00

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

bub, i know you're mad at me, i do alot of shit all the time and get you angry,
but i'm sorry k, please forgive me...

"if you're ugly, then the prettiest women on earth would be a goddess"

22nd March 2009

2009-03-22T00:24:00.002+08:00

hello blog readers:D

it's been a while since i blog actually, i'm damn busy la.
study, study, study i guess.
i wanna pass my o's with flying colours then i can show this bub that i mean business:)
i've got a hot tutor teaching me maths;D
k thats all, bye mates:)

19th march 2009

2009-03-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

hi. please study hard. k bye.

28th February 2009

2009-02-28T13:29:00.002+08:00

hey dude/ dudettes, listen to the song, to me its really sad la, heh.

remember when you ask me to rebutkan the swing so the other kids would'nt get the chance to ride it?
when you felt ticklish cause i was doing my best to soothe your pains by massaging you-.-
when we braved the cold weather together because we only have one sweater to share, hahahaha
when we shared waffles and ice-cream because i was broke that day-.-
when we punched each other cause we were playing that punching ame thingy:)
when we slept in the bus and almost miss your bustop:D
when we would camwhore because we felt like it.

:D bubby we'll work things out k.

'its hard to belive that i couldnt see, that you were always there beside me'

2009-02-21T18:08:00.002+08:00

hello! saya seorang puteri & saya lawaaaa skali :D

HAHAHA. k obviously this is not isa . guess whooo (:
post dedicated to you sasa . hehehehe .

2009-02-08T08:46:00.002+08:00

i got a sore throat.
i got uncountable homework to do.
i got fuckloads of pictures to draw for art.
i feel like shit.
i feel like having a fag though my throat is killing me.
i feel hungry but i'm too tired to eat.

bub, we'll take one step at a time k, there's no need to rush.

4th February 2009

2009-02-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

the sound of your heartbeat is like the sweetest melody to me.
i feel so secured when you hug me.
this feeling is like no other:)
come what may bub, come what may.

27th January 2009

2009-01-27T13:35:00.002+08:00

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, I'll see.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you, You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you, I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me. Yeah... Yeah...
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
I'll put a spell on you, You'll fall asleep, I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you, I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.
I'll put a spell on you, You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you, I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...

its funny to know that a guy like me knows serenity.
its funny that its easier to touch someone hurtfully than affectionately.
its funny that things can be fun when its boring.
its funny that the coldest place on earth can be the warmest cosiest place.
its funny to know that cuddles may seem like the best sex you get.
and its funny to know that watching the person you love most sleep is the most peaceful picture you'll ever get in your mind:) good day mates:)

7th January 2009

2009-01-07T15:07:00.002+08:00

ever felt like trying a new genre of music once in a while?
if you're in for some culture music then why not come down to gossip bar at parkline.

bands performing:

-cesspit
-popwhizze
-private eye
-lagi ska-li
-20Dc
-sideline
-before she die
-the bois
-steelis

tickets are priced at $10 each if purchase from me and $12 at the entrance.
if you're interested? email me at isa_dracul@hotmail.com
see you there mates!

2nd January 2008

2009-01-02T18:45:00.002+08:00

momma, life have just begun.

schools' a drag, schools' a drag, schools' a drag i swear to god.
fuck shit sia, i thought i was gonna be in sec5B, me coming from the lower end acadamic class i thought it was so.
then *dum, dum, dum* i go in 5A, wah sibehxzxz shit shit sia.
i think god gave me uncool classmates so i could ignore them and study hard.
so i think i'm gonna get myself a ipod nano chromatic to soothe myself, i love being pampered, woohoo!
my canon eos 450d i'll get you soon baby, maybe by then you'll evolve then perhaps i'll purchase the newer version of you:D

alright, good day mates!

1st January 2009

2009-01-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

when life throws a matrep who lies and talk bad about your bestfriend,
you gotta show the world that the boys are back to stay and give him ye' old english beating:D

so countdown was sort of a blast, hahaha, sure as hell there were alot of booze!
in the words of d.wira, "the goodstuff kapeee" hahahaha.
so i headed down to town for countdown '08 with my mates.
screw you nur lyana for not being able to have dinner with me, hahaha, but you are forgiven:D
so basically we actually just walked around for a nice place to sit and watch the fireworks.
met a few of herman's friends, they brought themselves ye' olde king robert, hahahaha!
i got myself one of those things that only the strong can conquer, if you readers know what i mean;)
so once the fireworks started lit myself a fag and slurp down the goodstuff, what a way to usher in the new year.
after the fireworks we took pictures while on this sort of ledge thingy and the marina barrage.
after a few shot i had to get down, the height being approximately 1 story, feeling abit tipsy i just had the leap of faith, sudden rush of adrenaline overwhelm me, next thing i knew, i crashed on my tailbone and slapped my head on concrete. it does still hurt-.-
met wira after then, joked around till the first bus then headed home.
got myself a haircut when i woke up, brown proud skins, hahaha, get what i mean?
so its 11+ now i gotta go sleep for tomorrow is my first day as a sec5 student! woohoo!
i'll update this post asap aite, put up some pictures for the first time:D

k alright, yo, scum of the earth, you're up there,somewhere spreading lies about my bestfriend. believe it or not if it was'nt for her i'll beat the crap out of you, you kidding around with another human being's pride here. it would'nt be a sin if i actually kill you, bloody cunt.

well that's all my blog readers don't feel threaten what so ever by the above paragraph, just expressing myself to a certain 'matrep', sooo toodles mates! have a great night sleep and great year ahead!

30th December 2008

2008-12-30T17:26:00.002+08:00

its gonna be 2009 soon!
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
should auld acquaintance be forget and days o'lang syne
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne yaaaay(:

so my new year's resolutions is to save money every week so that i can give my momma, papa and my future gf/ wife :D

so this is it 2008, we had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun(:
well truthfully 2008 is my years of sins, i sure as hell did alot of sins.
the life i live, the booze, the junkies, the art, the wrath, the intimacy but i must not regret because at one moment it was what i wanted.

i'll always remember 1st january 2008 because lyana hung out with me last countdown.
i remember waking up in the wee hours of the morning just to rush to pasir ris to fetch lyana from home to go to school with her.
i remember the day i was traumatised, the day i ran for my life.
i remember the times when i thought that the only one i got in life was her.
i remember the times hakim, arvind and me escape from class to either play catching, pick a fight, watch channel new asia, eat chocolate pudding or go smoke somewhere int the school.
i remember fighting in school and getting away.
i remember fighting at larve's bday chalet.
i remember getting so drunk at larve's chalet that i could'nt control myself.
i remember meeting someone so sweet at larve's chalet called mmsl;)
i remember we were the best of buds.
i remember going straightedge for lyana.
i remember arvind and i being force into a police car to be questioned.
i remember throwing paper planes from the class window with hakim and arvind.

i sure as hell remember a whole lot of things, the times we shared, the fights, the late night partying, haha.

i guess this is it. maybe i'll blog again somemore:D

28th December 2008

2008-12-28T04:11:00.003+08:00

few more days to countdown:D

anywho went down to wira's gig at bugis street just now.
apparently i really admire ska music now, there's this beat that's very addicting(:
so yeah the bad news was that by the time i reached, they were done playing-.- fucked up abit la but what to do.
so yeah we which includes me, arvind, wira, irah, lisqa, faizal, haiqal, tam and i think the other dude is tino walked to peninsula to get some of the ol' goodstuff:D
arvind bought a pair of adi shoes then we headed of to fort caning park, slack there for a min or so, made jokes, pass time, cool bunch of peeps, take my word for it(:
after some time the RAN-MAN called! wooohooo ran-man! (raden for you people)
he said farhanah wanna slack at haji lane for some shisa so arvind and i grab the offer, walked to bugis after we waved our goodbyes to the group.
once there we got a table and ordered the shisa, apparently arvind and me are not a bunch of freeloaders so we got ourselves our very own shisa, actually arvind paid so i'm the freeloader, wahahahahaha.
so we chitchat for a moment or so, and it's been a long time since i met farhanah's cousin raihanah so we catched up a little bit on our separate lifes:D (i'm very sociable)
after that arvind, the ran-man and i head to bedok for a late supper and then we headed of to our crib for some carrom, after that we headed home. so basically i'm whacked from all the walking. wah, cannot accompany girls shoping, hahahaha.
so goodnight mates!

support local music, woohoo! -.-

22nd December 2008

2008-12-22T06:27:00.003+08:00

wah wah wah, hahahaha.

well first of all you know i won't ever turn against you.
i was angry man, understand me.
what man in my state won't be, agree?
i mean all i wanted to do was ask you out to countdown and i have to ask him permission i mean wtf-.-
i mean you're not even attached to him, even so if you are he does not control you.
whatever it is you are free to go out with whoever, right?
sorry alright buddy if i did upset you.
in the end you are my bestfriend, my buddy, my mate, my hommie! hahaha.

ku ingin rumah yang mewah yang besarnya bagai istana sang raja,
tak pernah berasa susah,mau apa saja akan slalu ada.
Bagaikan saudagar kaya yang uwangnya sampai berlimpah-limpah.
ku ingin semua yang ada, dalam khayalan ku,jadi nyataku:D

21st December 2008

2008-12-21T17:29:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGG
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
GGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit! fuck! twat! cunt! ezel! ARGH!

19th December 2008

2008-12-19T08:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRDDAY ABEAN:D
yo, just 16 is it? hahaha well happy birthday dude
4 years of up and downs, fights and a whole lot of fun.
well wish you well in everything you do:D

so i made plans to go for sec5, with the support of many(:
well hopefully i'll make it pass next year.
nur lyana muahahahahat! hahahaha, you better help me through kay! we'll go through the o's together. so perhaps gonna shop for a school beg later, Ben Sherman here i come!

18th December 2008

2008-12-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

YAAAAAAAY(: i made it(:

well isa iskandar blog readers(: i made it to sec 5 with a score of 10. choices are to ite or sec 5 but im gonna give sec5 a shot. very unexpected, i did not study for my n level,wawawawawa(:

one might say i'm lovin' the lucky life:D

16th December 2008

2008-12-16T20:04:00.002+08:00

argh fuck la!
kenal-kenal sini, kenal-kenal sane.
blah. hahahhehehuhu. sometimes being loyal hurts the most.
bye mates.

13th December 2008

2008-12-13T18:08:00.002+08:00

its funny to know that when you're poor there's no fun.
its funny to know that at times friends or so called brothers can make mistakes that hurt you.
its funny to know that friends can suddenly go missing.
its funny to know that you old buddies could easily be replace with new ones.
its funny to know that the things god forbids you to do are the ones that take your problems away.
its funny to know that your bro's ex would turn out to be your bestest best friend.
its funny to know that tiny details like dates mean alot to me.
its funny to know that last year around this time of year, i was the happiest man on earth.
its funny to know that a year later, now, things crash horribly.

22nd November 2008

2008-11-22T11:14:00.001+08:00

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

i'm great enough already:)

16th November 2008

2008-11-16T05:04:00.003+08:00

50% chance i may not attend the hooligan's retreat, kuala lumpur malaysia:(
jobless, cashless, love life sucks, hair is always in a mess
dudeeeee, life currently sucks!
no chicks somemore, haiya, well actually there are lots of females out there to hit on but i don't really seem to be attracted to them-.-
well normally just like entertain them for a moment of so then its over.
can't be a player ah, hahahaha!
well truth is i want you(: you know, i know, we know.
i miss the times when we were super close, heh(:
when it was almost okey to talk about anything, even marriage-.-
when you were concern about me, when you tried to convince me to not drink
memories either bring joy or they are just a pain in the bottom-.-
2009 is coming, at least spend the new year with me kay?

But you should know ,

When it gets too cold ,
You're not alone

I'll melt the snow:D

9th November 2008

2008-11-09T01:12:00.002+08:00

got this from kya bergyra's blog:D

TAGGED(:

1.The person who tagged you is?
Nur lyana bte Ibrahim O Mahat(:

2.Your relationship with her ?

ooooh, we go waaaay back don't we(: well currently just buddies.

3.Your 5 impression of her?
ever so lovely, hot-tempered, smart, annoying at times:D, one might say beautiful(:

4.The most memorable thing she had done for you?
brighten up and life and made it meaningful too.

5.The most memorable thing she had said to you?

i will never marry you, isa iskandar-.-

6.If she becomes your lover, you will?
buy her one of her very own rainbow(:

7.If she becomes your enemy, you will?
cry and shave my head...did'nt i do that already-.-

8.What is it that you want to tell her now?
ey minah, be free laaaa, no need to study i can surpport you when you marry me:D muahahaha.

9.Your overall impression of her?
beauty with balls.

10.How do you think people around you feel about you?
well they think i'm smart and cool:D

11.The characters you love of yourself are?
egoistic(:

12.The characters you hate of yourself are?
soft-hearted. i sympatise with ppl too much

13.The most ideal person you want to be is?
isa iskandar( is it me?! hehehehe)

14.For people who care and like you, say something to them.
thanks, come join my gang:D

15.Pass this quiz to 10 people who you wish to know how they feel about you.

i guess some bloggers have done this. oh well.

1. Nur lyana
2. Arvind. C :D
3. Irdiana
4. Mmsl
5. Farhana banana
6. Adlyn saihla
7. Naf puff cousin
8. Wardah
9. Germaine i guess
10. Azmeer too, if he has a blog.

16.Who is no.6 having relationship with? (adlyn)
i think its with that KASI-ME guy:D muahahahaha. (inside joke)

17.Is number 9 a male or female? (germaine)
cute chubby female.

18. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (naf puff cousin, azmeer)
wah my cousin and azmeer-.-, wah sibei, wah.....wa mau mati ah..

19.What is no.2 studying about? (arvind)
how to get a job easy.

20.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? (irdiana)
hmmm,not quite sure, last chat was about no.2

21.What kind of music band does no.8 like? (wardah)
those like relax rock i guess.

22. Does no.1 have any siblings? (lyana minah)
a really ermm questionable older brother and cute little sister(:

23.Will you woo no.3? (irdiana)

that would be very very very very wrong.

24.How about 7? (naf puff cousin)

my cousin-.- very very very very x a millionxzxzxz wrong.

25. Is number 4 single? (mmsl)
nooooope taken by her adumb bf(: sorry could'nt help it:D

26.What is the surname of no.5? (farhana)
being a muslim she does'nt own one.

27.What is a hobby of no.10? (azmeer)
sitting at bedok inter phonebooth, you know, i know eh meh(:

28. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? (farhana, germaine)
i don't think they know each other...

29.Where is no.2 studying at? (arvind)
bedok north ave 3. BTY studios.

30.Talk something about 1. (lyana minah)
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me haaaappy when skies are grey:D

31.Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? (wardah)
noooo-.- she is cool at times la, most of the time she's just a pig.sorry:D

32.Where does no.9 live? (germaine)
i have no idea.

33. What colour does no.4 like? (mmsl)
i'm thinking green?

34.Are no.1 and 5 best friends? (banana, minah)
those who speaks their names in the same sentence will be cursed for eternity.

35.Does no.1 have any pets? (lyana minah)
no, but use to own this tiny stuff toy TERRORpin which she will place on a toy car and make it bang the wall-.-

36.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? (naf puff cousin)

she likes to think that she is, so be it...she's my cousin for godsake.

37. What is no.10 doing now? (azmeer)
sleeping i guess, what to do curfew eh mehmeh *winkwink*

17 more days to my birthday :D
20 more days to (kuala lumpur, malaysia) hooligans retreat 2008+mama and syirah! woohooo.

3rd November 2008

2008-11-03T01:09:00.002+08:00

well at times the ability to read someone esle is really fucked up.
if thats' what you want then i guess okay. heh.
here always k.
i'm gonna be very busy now because i want to pick up thai boxing, yoga and learn shogi(jap chess)

we were as one babe, for a moment in time,
and it seemed everlasting that you'd always be mine.
now you wanna be free, so i'm letting you fly,
cause i know in my heart babe, our love will never die.

26th October 2008

2008-10-26T12:46:00.002+08:00

went to sentosa with wira, munirah the birthday girl, herman the birthday boy, helmi, arvind. was a fun day la.

met 'the geng' in the morn, bought crackers, drinks and everything esle then head off.
so reach there, pitched our tents and played a little brazilian beach soccer(:
swim for a min or so after then enjoyed ourselves in the outdoors.
soon lisqa and her bf came, i forgot his name la. but he was funny though.
we all swam again soon after.
the sun burnt me on my back:(
went back to 'our place' got changed then 4 peacocks came near us! damn cool sey.
watched the sunset, beautiful.
soon after cut the cake, pack up then spent time hanging around at vivo's waterpark thingy.
enjoying time at the waterpark was really cool,
i mean it was relaxing and all of us had fun talking and cracking jokes,
wira was saying something like how it would be fun if you had to have this meal that include, nasi semut, soup ketiak monyet and asam pedas kepale totis! hahahaha for drinks its air katira mate ular, aaand for hari raye its rendang katak! hahahaha!
lisqa then bought mc chicken for all of us, i think was really cool and sweet of her(: thanks lisqa(:
part our ways and went back after that.

24th October 2008

2008-10-24T10:29:00.001+08:00

currently listening to orson-ain't no party.
well this song really brings back memories.
:D

23rd October 2008

2008-10-23T15:32:00.001+08:00

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YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY(:

23rd October 2008

2008-10-23T08:27:00.002+08:00

so i'm down with a high fever-.-
i think this fever came as a punishment, for smoking and eating meat:(
well, hahaha isa iskandar.
went for a job interview the day before yesterday, with luck i may be doing somewhat of a packers job.
after that had lunch with arvind, janelle and mmsl, i ate beef:( i am so weak, could'nt fight the temptation.
so much for the straight edge thing...
bought the cd 'moulin rouge' you guy should watch the movie, its awesome.

the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and to be love in return.
i miss you:(

21st October 2008

2008-10-21T09:46:00.002+08:00

it is 10am now...
reached home just now at about 6+
i have'nt abit, i'm soo damn guilty:(
forgive me ly for i have sinned:(
i have smoked a couple of sticks just now.
i am weak.
most of the straight edge thing still continue though but then again i smoked:(

sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry
sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry
sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry:(

one shall receive punishments for breaking oaths.

two more days(:
come what may, i will love you, until my dying day, heh(:

20th October 2008

2008-10-20T07:04:00.003+08:00

well, just wished my fellow O level mates goodluck, hopefully all of them will do well(:
yest went out with arvind for dinner, i had dumb chap choi with rice-.-, he had the fish carcase in sweet and sour sauce (yum) later walked around parkway and some guy just had to do this disgusting habit, to smoke! [ :( ] k whatever, walked around check out for nicorette gums it cost apprx 20 bucks per box, how stupid is that! i wanna go get some sleep, this straight edge thing is getting too in my head already.

tick, tock, tick, tock (:
waiting for you like an eager child(:
if it fails this time, i would'nt know whats the problem...

19th October 2008

2008-10-19T12:05:00.005+08:00

somebody help me find these songs please:(

~~The specials:~~
~~Ratrace,~~
~~Ghost town,~~
~~Gangsters,~~
~~Monkey man.~~

Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra:
Skaravan,
~~Ska me crazy,~~
Happy birthday ska,
Pedorazu,
~~Tetris,~~
Sesame street,
Russian cowboy,
~~Hit the road jack.~~

~~Gerhana Ska Cinta:~~
~~Inilah ska.~~

Ska klinik:
Berkhayal.

The Kingsmen:
Louie Louie.

anyone who owns any of these songs please add me at isa_dracul@hotmail.com and send me the song via msn. even so if you do not own the song and can help me download, i would love that(: well thanks people.

19th October 2008

2008-10-19T05:07:00.002+08:00

well, well(:
my very first straight edge day(thanks for correcting me fullstop dude)
well, it sort of sucked but i'm sooo doing my best:(
went to cousin's place and did'nt even touch the chicken, i was thinking dead animal on plate.
sucks-.-
where are you mate? i miss you soooo much already.
memories are slowly back:(

I wish that I could hold you now
I wish that I could touch you now
I wish that I could talk to you
be with you somehow.

18th October 2008

2008-10-18T06:36:00.004+08:00

hey it has been only hours since you went off but i swear to god i miss you already.
baby, for you, perhaps i wanna turn into a vegan(: straight edge! don't drink, don't do drugs and don't smoke(:
my dear i'm willing to quit my lifestyle for you(: i realise girls don't want drunkards, drug users, smokers, gangster, blalalala as their boyfriends'.
i know you hate those bad guy type so here i am willing to change my lifestyle(:
straight edge people(:
1. do not drink.
2. do not take drugs.
3. do not smoke.
4. do not eat meat, animal products.
5. no sex-.-

sooo yeah(: well am gonna get nicorette gum later on, hopefully thing will turn out right(:

baby, feelings grow.

9th October 2008

2008-10-09T09:23:00.002+08:00

aaaaand i'm back(:
sooo, yea N's are finally over, kay perhaps i'm failing but what to do.
i did kindda asked for it-.- sooo, yea i have all the time to enjoy but somehow life is so damn boring:(
i need MONEY, a AWESOME JOB, a HOLIDAY!!!
well most of all i need money:(
there's so much i wanna get and hopefully i can get to new zealand as fast as possible to make it in time to get back to singapore for ska fest '08(:
and yea currently i have this golden sort of white hair that makes it hard to find a job:(
someone please tell me what colour to dye my hair:(
i need a ciggarette.
someone save me.

2008-08-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

yaaayyyyyy . im in isa's account :D
lyly here.
isa is lazy to blog, so im gna blog for him .
his blog is dead . soso dead. verrrrry DEAADDDDD .

heh okay. im talking to him currently. &it has been like 234235245 years since i last had fun chatting with him.
lalala. &he thinks he is some hotstuff. HAHA !

okay, good luck fr ur N lvls isa. we shall go out someday cause its been ages since we last went out together, haha ! okay i shall shut up .

yours truly,
lyly(:
byyyyyyye :D

11th july 2008

2008-07-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

today is one roller-coaster day la to say.
started off the day going to school late, walked slowly to the bus stop smoking.
come on laaa, i do it everyday! and people look at me as it i was a terrorist-.-
k then reached school, got temperature taken then got caught for miss abraham and the gang-.-
k, ignore that incident walked to class.

bla bla bla bla.

N level oral just now, english, it was about animals and the countryside-.-
then had this major problem because my bag and handphone was in the art room and its now locked cause art teacher went home already-.-
then walk walk walk, saw her smile, haha,kk thought art teacher in school in the end had no choice but to go to the office.
k in the end ms abraham was the one who helped me,yeah shes cool la at times.
bla bla bla.
go 138, go inter.
see stuffs, see cake.
k my dear boss, you're gonna have the birthday of your life(:
walked home, talked to somebody she made me smile la but i feel guilty:(
k watch contender, i think dzhabar is my new role model now(:

k ta-dah.

'hey kamu yang cantik, jangan berpaling dahulu, aku masih ingin memandangmu'

9th july 2008

2008-07-09T01:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAIMAI(:

k sooo, you're sweet 16 now.
you're a young lady baby(:
then and now is like sooo different laa,haha.
anyways thanks for being my pal and my supporting little sister for like the past 3 years(:
sacrifices were made for you but it was all worth it(:
i love you and always will k, my all-grown up baby sister(:
abang isa is always here for you when you need him((:
though im younger then you-.-

anyways happy birthday
and i wish you good luck in everything you do(:

blood could'nt make us any closer love<3

3rd July 2008

2008-07-03T21:44:00.002+08:00

blalalala.
got hurt enough already la.
i don't think i wanna continue, you're probably smiling reading this post.
yeah i finally give up.
its useless trying princess and unicorns because they don't exist.
so continue chasing for you is useless because you're in you're own chase.
but i still cherish the moments we shared.
you will still stay in my heart but i won't be chasing for you no more.

29th june 2008

2008-06-29T00:48:00.002+08:00

got this from irdiane's blog(:

1.What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
- bro's friend -.-

2. Do you ever turn off your cellphone?
- so far i have not, but if the batt's low then i have no choice.

3. Wad happen to you at 10am today?
- called arvind, i think.

4. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put it up ur hood?
- hoodie if its not raining heavily.

5. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
- just a bolster will do.

6. What bottom are you wearing now?
erm.....boxers.

7. What's the nicest thing on your inbox said?
there are zero messages in my inbox.

8. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
i guess :s

9. Are you wearing anything that is borrowed from someone?
nope.

10. Do you like your current class?
not the venue.

11. What are you proud of?
- everything i have in life.

12. What's your handphone model?
w550i -.-

13.What's was the last song you sang it out loud?
- hatiku luka lagi by black dog bone-.-

14. Do you have any nicknames?
- Don, goofy , legong-.-

15. What does your last received text say?
- nothing in my inbox!

16. What time did you go to bed last night?
- ard 3 or 4 i guess.

17. Do you eat whipped cream straight from can?
- never.

18. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Vice versa .

19. What annoys u most in person?
- not much actually.

20. Do u have a crush on anyone?
- i guess.

21. Have you ever done cocaine?
- never:(

22. what is the colour of ur room?
- baby blue.

23. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
- shit! OF COURSE!

24. Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
- i guess so.

25. Do you have a life?
- duh!

26. Have you ever think someone died but they actually haven't?
- not really, but sometimes i just wish some people would die:(

27. Whats your reason behind your blog song ?
- i don't own a blog song-.-

28. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
- i forgot.

29. Last time you smiled?
- just now cause i was admiring myself in the mirror(:

30. Have you changed this year?
- idk. i don't this is a question im suppose to answer.

31. What are you listening to now?
- 4 minutes by madonna and j.timberlake.

32. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
- nope.

33. Do u walk with your eyes open or closed?
- open, duh.

34. Is there a quote you live by?
- come what may / only god can judge me.

35. Do you want someone you can't have?
- yea, you know who you are.

036. Have you ever played an instrument?
- recorder-.- primary school.

37. Wad are you doing last night at 11pm?
- listening to mummy talking about her melacca trip.

38. Are u happy with your love life now?
- not really, but its okay(:

39.Wad song describe ur love life?
- melt the snow by shayne ward.

40. Does that person know that you like him/her?
- yea she does(:

41. Who always make you laugh?
- my brothers and the jokes they make.

42.Do you speak other language other then english?
- malay

43. Are you blond?
- i wish i was-.-

44. What is your middle name?
- dont have one.

45. What are you doing tomorrow?
- well my sister promise to get me a new phone, i guess i'll be following her then.

46. What do you think you are like?
- egoistic, powerful, annoying, loyal.

47. Who will you choose to die with?
- nobody.

48. Where have you been today?
- home, then to onan road for family dinner.

49. What game you play often?
- dragonball Z :road to victory.

50. Who are you missing now?
- my 6j brothers, irdiana, lily.

51. If you have to choose between love or friends which one will you choose?
- love, because there are no such things are friends.

52. What are you doing right now?
- wathcing tv, doing this quiz.

53. Which primary school were you from?
- temasek primary ( only the best )

54. Name 3 colours that you like:
- green, black and blue.

55. What emotion you like to show?
- calmness.

56. Which month are u born?
-november baby! :D

57. How are you feeling right now?
- thirsty.

58. What is the time now?
- 1.23am.

59.Where are you now?
- home.

60. Who is more important to you boyfriend or friends?
- no comments.

61. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- i believe i have more then enough.

62. Do u believe in infinite love?
- yea.

63. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
- i have no friends, only true brothers.

64. Do u believe in God?
- Yes, the one and only.

65. Who cares for you the most?
- dad.

66. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- power, loyalty, love.

67. Describe the person who tagged you.
- some guy called 'quest', i believe he's a coward because he insults via internet-.- pfft.

68. What would you feel if no one cares for you?
- normal.

69. What if your lover two-timed you?
- nothing, for its fate.

70. What is your greatest wish?
- for it to be back to december 2007.

19th june 2008

2008-06-19T19:42:00.001+08:00

i felt my heart drop.
and most probably it'll be continue falling in this bottomless pit.
hah.
this sucks.

19th june 2008

2008-06-19T05:34:00.002+08:00

its 5 o'clock in the morning,
and i still can't sleep, thinking bout your beauty it makes me weep(: heh.
haha, was just reading your long long ago msges,
and yeah it gave me the biggest smile(:
am tired but i just can't seem to fall asleep.

i need you, my terrorpin;)

11th June 2008

2008-06-11T01:15:00.003+08:00

i'm dumb.
i'm stupid.
i was foolish.
i overslept and was too late to fetch you from the airport.
i thank my brothers for making my day though.
no more being the 'bad guy'.

'air mata jatuh ke pipi, aku bukanlah matrep lagi'
hidup mati 6jahanam(:

10th June 2008

2008-06-10T08:41:00.004+08:00

you'll be back home today, baby(:
right now at fid's house blogging.
around 3 right? i'll be waiting(:
omg, i miss you like so damn much,hah(:
k going to eat breakfast later,then maybe to pasir ris to pierce something(:
then i'll go fetch you perhaps(:

remember how i sheltered your head from the rain using my cap on the night of 22nd of december? haha, but in the end we got all wet-.-
personally, just remembering that time puts a smile on my face(:
imy.

9th june 2008

2008-06-09T09:46:00.002+08:00

just got to know that you'll be back only until tuesday.
somehow i wish i was a year younger and was in thailand.
i miss you lily:(
i miss those times where you would try you best at my psp but in the end fail, haha.
when i would sit by you and watch you play, feeling annoyed,then you would say, 'this is how a girl would feel' with the most beautiful smile ever(:

baby, its either i'm sleeping too late or waking up too early thinking about you.
imy.ly.

8th june 2008

2008-06-08T14:15:00.002+08:00

i think you're gonna be back today.
you are right?
well i miss you(:
nope, i miss you so damn much(:
hahaha, hopefully i'll get to see you later.
going out to get a prayer book for someone,haha.

lily dearest, remember when we talk about marriage?
that we'll have two? one on a big big open field and one on a expensive hotel?
hahaha, just thinking about that chat puts a smile on my face(:
my dear, you'll forever be t.hat w.onderful l.ily((:

this is disco laziest time.
i want you, i need you<3

7th June 2008

2008-06-07T13:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday.
met lily at the airport to send her off.
she's going to thailand(:
reached there around 6.05am,
at first just got to see her from afar cause someone's dad was there-.-'
i imagined the last goodbye so differently, in the end you said something which upset me alot.
walked off, i really regret doing that.
i should have stayed and waved you goodbye.
now i'm missing you terribly, i want you back here lily.
i want to eat breakfast with you at loyang point's mac before your ncdcc training.
i want the old times back.

and i'll be right here waiting for you.

30th May 2008

2008-05-30T23:30:00.002+08:00

one by one.
we're going down my brothers.
but although most of us are down all of you still in my heart.
in my head.
if one of us gets separated, we shall all meet in heaven.

i miss you lily, i miss you lizard-arab and boxer-arab.

29thmay08

2008-05-29T22:41:00.003+08:00

everyone's going down one by one!
will be back soon!
? ? ?

27th may 2008

2008-05-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

hi peeps!!
blogging for isa iskandar after a long time (:
gonna go school tmr and start studying hard because time is running!!
well,just came back from plaza sing,sent jiaxin to work in la senza then ate my lunch then walked arnd with gf<3

poor jilly couldnt finish her Olevel malay paper!
hopefully she'll make it through all subjects and pass with flying colours!GOODLUCK!
and i miss her tonns!its been 2years&6months&5days!
it hurts somtimes to see u happy with him!
but you should be happy!(:

thats it for today!
take care peeps!
the world will end one day and if doesnt everyone will die someday..so...
be happy!(:
nights!
ARVIND?

15th may 2008

2008-05-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

momma, life has just begun...
had a chat with shanadyah bte musjaggot just now.
she made me feel better somewhat.
thank you(:
mommy going overseas tommorow, with luck i'll be poppin at popparazy with ma hommies(:
hopefully i can take my mind off all this.
currently listening to queen's bohemian rhapsody and waiting for contender to start.

ps, i think i'm the loser haha.
so much for the troubles i went trough,hah(:
like what freddy mercury sang, ' i'm just a poor boy, nobody loves me'

14th may 2008

2008-05-14T21:53:00.001+08:00

happy happy birthday dearest nur lyana(:
you're 15 now and yea you'll be getting you ic soon,haha(:
there's a reason i chose this pic and only you would know the reason lyana(:
hopefully by the time you read this, you already have seen your surprise surprise(:
hey i may not be able to spend your birthday with you or walk you to your place,
but theres one thing i have and its connections and surprise surprises;)
you claim you never saw a lily before and here i am giving you the opportunity(:
white = purity,
just showing you that my love for you is true and pure(:
once again happy birthday, hope you love the gifts.

9th may 2008

2008-05-09T11:15:00.000+08:00

sorry papa.
i'll show the school who will lose face later on.
i'll fight for you like how hamzah fought for islam.
but i will never let my egoism down for them.
it's just that theres alot in my head and im taking them one by one.
i love you papa.

i still do love you, lily and you don't even care.

4th may 2008

2008-05-04T01:32:00.000+08:00

it's all about you.

25th november 2007- first time talking to you:) the start of our friendship.
26th november 2007- you went out with me to celebrate my brithday:)
29th november 2007- free starbucks eh, haha, yea yea free food(:
4th december 2007- you went for mine and rad's birthday pit, sorry for being a stupid drunk bastard. on the head(:
6th december 2007- we went out for 'breakfast' then milo's class pit, haha, sorry for waking up late and asking you to stay up late.
10th december 2007- you family chalet. spending time with you at pasir ris beach;)
11th december 2007- you went out with my bros to bugis, we spent time you made me feel complete.
13th december 2007- went to your family pit with rad(: meet the family spent time with you. haha(:
14th december 2007- met you in the morn,spent time with you near rad's place. made me feel special before i went to malaysia(:
14th dec(nite) to 17th dec (nite)- rot in kuala lumpur missing you. felt as if i was in hell, haha.
21st december 2007- you dad saw me calling you, haha first sign of bad luck, met you in the morn, we had breakfast, you were late we cabbed to school, pecked in the cab. made me feel like your husband, haha.after that you met me at 138, you came home and got hell from your mama, sorry boo:(
22nd december 2007- that unfaithful raining night. qianning's pit. offered you my cap to protect your head from the rain(: important talk at the staircase, haha.
31st december 2007 to 1st january 2008- we went countdown together. sorry if i made you feel left out but you were the best company ever(: you started off my year beautifully((:

put alot of effort to remember this dates well(:

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care (but i know you care, at least i think you do)

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

you were my everything by aviation ( deleted some words cause i thought it made no sense to out story.)
words in blue- i think they mean alot ( in your fave' colour)
words in red- i think that would happen.
oh and remember you said something about your eyes suka hujan sembarang, yea im apologising for the same thing too. sorry for walking off yest cause i wanted to hide 'the rain' haha(:

well you put on quite a show,very entertaining but its over now, go on and take a bow:)
and she's gone out of my life.
lily<3

26th april 2008

2008-04-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

had a fun time with my bros haha(:
k today went to penin with my bros and some of theirs chicks
herman, fiona, ammar, seetoh, bai, faris, denny and fid.
walk2 ard penin.
end up at bras basah road in the the end.
mrt-ed to bedok slack2 at ammar house then played the black-out game,hahaha!
went home after that, damn tired now, tummy hot2 haha.
i miss my boss, ah leng and dearest lily.

i feel as if we're drifting far far away dearest and i need you here by my side my dear dear legong(:

oh and its you made me smile cause you resemble everything a million lilies own.

i still love you like how it as once upon a december(:

20th april 2008

2008-04-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

mid year's this friday.
so much to worry about.
i need money money money.
5 months have passed.
once upon a december.
very random post.

going to bathe, read, revise then sleep.

imy like so damn much. it was all once upon a december(:

20th april 2008

2008-04-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

LF today.
came at 11+
got her a cadbury chocolate-.-
met arv, azim and lizard in the morn.
went to azim's crib and met his family and hamster(:
cabbed to sch, went in pass the chocolate to her and karaoke-ed in the ava room.
after that slack with matt and the gang. ate, watch crazy guy, soccer.
suppose to be poppin' at poparazzy but noooooo:(
went to 138 slack, slack, slack.
went home. now blogging.

listening to some guy on the telly reciting holy verses.

i try and try and try and i'm trying but inside it feels like i'm dying.

truthfully, my brothers made my day.

16th april 2008

2008-04-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

.OHM.

so today went to school as per normal, well had a had time waking up i felt abit feverish.
in the end was forced to go school cause mommy 'pujuk' me(:
met the matthias gang, had a quick puff then to assembly.
after assembly ms. abraham talked to me and arvind about ' manesachis and suara hati'. hahahaha!
went to sick bay soon after, rest2 then go back to class.
after school, cabbed to 138 slacked for a while then go home.
was friendstering when azmeer called me to follow him sell phone, met him and kak miramey at block 32. sold phone borrowed 20 from azmeer(:
mrt-ed to outram and met arvind and mr. rizal. blablabla.
now in pain. the end.

today was kindda boring.

currently listening to dailamo dailamo by dishyum. some cool indian song-.-

i miss you lily

15th april 2008

2008-04-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

back to blogging(:

haha, k sooo its been like a a year since my last post in my lost blog... somewhere in the world wide web. so N' levels this year, have not been concentrating much lately, stressed out but hey whatever happens, happens right?(:

so today, went to school blablablabla.
admired her from afar hah(:
went home straight after school, took a bath and got ready to go out with the ISFM.
watched kidscentral while i wait for her to finish school-.-, daddy called asked him to get me the lacoste shoe i was eyeing for((:

went out, to 138 first then to bedok mac.
art, talk, art, talk, talk, talk.
seriously i am lagging in art.
blablablabla. people msged, went home alone.

walked in the rain while listening to rihanna's take a bow, one really good song la(:
the phrase where people say that, 'i like crying in the rain cause no one notices' well its a lie(:
unless if its a thunderstorm(:

once upon a december dear, once upon a december(: